I quit.

Black Sheep in the Workplace.

So today I my first attempt at making homemade shampoo. As always, I rushed it and didn't read directions and ended up with a head full of apple cider vinegar and a short drive to work. Now obviously I had known it looked a little rough all day, but I thought I would just throw it up when I got to work and be completely fine. Wrong. I was absolutely humiliated in front of an entire group of co-workers saying I looked like complete shit. At first I was in shock and attempted to laugh it off. But when I got home, I realized how out of line my boss was in making those comments towards me. Friends or not, I refuse to be treated in such a manor. I feel like this runs rapid. A person obtains a little bit of power and completely abuses it. If you are different you are outcast among the group. Today I have realized that life is too short to subject myself to such cruelty. You can fail even in a safe job, so why wouldn't you do what you love? I will spend the next few weeks looking for different avenues in which I do not have to participate in the normal work environment. I eat bad there, I downgrade people, I'm always on edge, and anxiety levels go through the roof. I don't have to surround myself with people that I can't stand just to make ends meet. Abuse in any form is not okay and I refuse to engage in something I don't support anymore. We steal from thousands of people by marking rates up, stealing trades, and ripping off customers to make an extra buck. I will not partake in stealing money from hard working people again. You know what,  I'm glad I'm the black sheep. I don't see anything okay in how they treat people. I don't see anything okay with how they treat each other. I refuse to be a part of it any longer.

I quit....

EduKation 2014.

What does today's school system prepare you for? It prepares you for failure. The public education system is a joke. As I look back, the only thing I really learned how to do was regurgitate useless information. There was no hands on learning. There was no class that taught be how to budget. How to grow my own food. How to escape a system that is as corrupt  as they come. Look at the lunch we were provided everyday. Full of sodium, artificial coloring's, and my favorite, genetically modified ingredients. The average public school receives .92 cents for  each child. We are taught that success can only be measured by what college you get into, what GPA you receive, and even what sports team you get recruited for. There is no honor in being different or learning a different way than the standard. You are claimed unintelligent and even "slow" if you do not comprehend their meaningless lessons. Not that you are overwhelmed by the information, its just that you simply can not retain it in the methods in which they are teaching you. The state approved methods. The ones that big business employees to foster the knowledge of today's young. Shape and mold their minds to be 9-5 sheep. Totally asleep and unaware of anything that is going on other than what  they hear on the idiot box. Fielded and herded into crowded hauls like cattle. Made to feel out of the ordinary or weird if they express themselves in a different way than the other mindless majority of the population. As educators, they say they don't want to divide us, but that's all they do. They create separate classes within the confinements of a school building. Dumbing us down with fluoride rinses and out of date text book material. Giving us meals with the same nutritional value as the ones they serve in our state prisons.We fight over things like the pledge and evolution. & yet, we fail to acknowledge global warming, the clean water crisis, and the current state of Syria. We have candy bar selling contests and pep rally's where it's acceptable to run around like a barking baphoons. Even as going as far as making a "dummy" of the other teams star player and pulverizing them publicly. Rather than teaching love for all cultures, we discourage it.The values instilled on our children are materialistic. There is no class to teach them how to love the earth. No class to teach them how to love each other. And no class to teach them how to balance their energies to make an impact for the greater good, rather than just themselves. I shake my head at what our public school system has become. Until we change, there will be NO change.

Awaken.

I have probably learned more about myself in the last few months than I have in the entire 22 years I have been alive. I have laughed. I have cried. I have discovered parts of my mind that I didn't know existed. I have finally started my journey of self discovery. With all of this, comes a sense of awareness. A deeper sense of consciousness that arises from the ashes of an old soul. My body, mind, and spirit have become one. Unified and undivided I have realized that my sense of reality is just the same as everyone else. We are all separate entities of the same. We are all unique with individual gifts and life purposes, and yet every organism is the same. And yet, people are so unaware. Asleep at the wheel. Living their life day by day, going through the motions. So oblivious to what is actually happening in the world. Convincing themselves that only their little life matters. Concerned about only their existence rather than the world as a whole. Brainwashed by propaganda and media, afraid of what lies underneath the skin of Modern Day America. I weep for my children that have to grow up in such a delusional generation. No one cares that our food is contaminated with pesticides. No one cares that countless children are dying over seas. No one cares about anything other than themselves. We are a selfish generation, plagued by mindless guilty pleasures. But perhaps, some of us are evolving. Giving hope to the young that they will be different. They will continue on the road we have laid forth and will forever be different. Maybe.